Seven

I and Jia Nian, it is not like that

Time flies like a white horse passing through a gap, and before we know it, it is already the time of Chen Mobei's graduation. Reflecting on the time when we first met, he and Gu Meng, I and Lu Yihan, our lives were so simple then, and our happiness came so easily.

We inopportunely mentioned each other's most unwelcome names at the same time

I said, Lu Yihan, if you don't stop, I will die right in front of you!

Lan Shan had never smiled so gently before, her previously cold demeanor instantly dissipating. As she pierced a small piece of cake with her fork, I suddenly realized that she was, after all, just a little girl.

She continued, I met someone, I handed this burden over to him, he said he would take responsibility, so I am very happy

I was crying to the point of nearly dehydrating when I received a call from Chen Mobei. He first mumbled a few complaints, but upon hearing that something was off with my voice, he immediately returned to normal, asking, "What’s wrong? Let’s meet up!"

You and Lu Yihan ... ...

After he left, I sat on the concrete floor of the balcony, crying until dawn

But he did not hesitate; he said, "No longer."

But it was not originally like this; in fact, you can treat a person gently, and you can also give up your freedom or even your best friend for someone.

The one who broke the deadlock was Lu Yihan. He said, "Su Wei, I am not as foolish as you think. When you kept asking me about him, I realized something was off... But I thought, if you don't come clean, then so be it. Who hasn't had moments of indecision? I really didn't expect you... to treat me this way.

My head, which was already lowered, sank even lower after hearing his words. I dared not look at him. I thought anyone would find this unbearable—having one's girlfriend betray them with their best friend... This is a double betrayal

Qingtian, who was originally sitting on the stone bench crying sorrowfully, fainted at the sight of blood. I had no choice but to hold her tightly and slap her face vigorously. Those who were unaware of the situation might have thought that this rival in love had been knocked out by my slaps...

She scoffed and said, "Nonsense, there are countless mistresses in our courtyard who consider themselves artistic youths and wear heavy makeup every day." I was so taken aback by her bluntness that I couldn't find my words.

I thought about it, and it doesn't make sense. Why call Qing Tian over for this?

I once read a story about a woman who rushed into a church on the day her beloved was getting married and abducted the groom. The bride was left alone, supporting her future father-in-law, crying out "Dad, Dad." The cake that day had many layers, with a pair of newlyweds on top, inscribed with "A Hundred Years of Harmony"

We gazed at each other across five floors, and I was so choked with emotion that I could not speak

As the crowd of onlookers grew larger, I truly wished I could dig a hole and bury all four of us; in the end, I took on the heavy burden of cleaning up the mess.

I am so angry that I am rolling my eyes; I want you to cry for a few days to see what comes out, but I fear that even in this state, I may not compare to you!

She glanced at me, perhaps my expression made her feel there was no need to greet me, and so she walked straight past me. By the time I turned around, that red MINI was already nearly disappearing at the street corner

However, ever since I received that phone call from Lu Yihan, my tears have been flowing continuously day after day

Zhou Jianian and I were sitting on a stone bench in the square waiting for Lu Yihan and Qing Tian. I asked him why they chose to meet here

I think I can answer Gu Meng's question now—if Lu Yihan had nothing, would you still be with him

Lin Lanshan glanced at me, then at Chen Mobei, and smiled gently

He said, you have been with me for so long, whenever I do something you dislike, you only argue with me, you never cry. I never expected that by the time you would cry for me, our relationship would already be different

Ultimately, there will be vast mountains and rivers between us, as well as diverse groups of people with different skin colors, and there will be barriers of different languages and cultural environments.

But in the end, I simply shook my head and walked into the cake shop

Lanshan suddenly called my name, and I returned to my thoughts, staring at her in a daze

Zhou Jianian asked him, are we still considered brothers

Jia Nian, I must admit that I am truly very sad, more sad than I have ever been. I do not even know if this wound will heal in my lifetime

I am someone who rarely sheds tears, not because I am particularly resilient or strong, but because in my previous life, there have been almost no unfortunate events. The most common reason for my tears has been watching very moving films, where I cry for the stories of others, which have no connection to Su Wei's life

We happened to run into Gu Meng coming out just as we were going to buy a cake

Lan Shan is majoring in fine arts. I said, no wonder, you have a certain artistic temperament about you, which cannot be feigned.

My tears burst forth all at once

During that period, whenever I was not with Zhou Jianian, I was certainly with Lan Shan.

When Qing Tian was leaving, I squatted on the ground and cried like a tearful person, hugging my knees. I did not see the hatred in her eyes when she looked at me; I only heard her say a long speech to Zhou Jianian.

Once, I thought that you simply did not want to lose your freedom. I once believed that even if you were not with me, you would not be with anyone else. I deceived myself into thinking that this was acceptable; although you did not like me, at least you had not developed feelings for someone else. This was a comfort to me.

How perceptive Lan Shan is, she nudged me, is she a very important friend

I stood in the corridor wearing a thin nightgown, looking at him below the dormitory building. He stood like a child in the shadow of a large tree. We were separated by five floors, but this was not the final distance

Lu Yihan will not be left with nothing, yet Su Wei still left him; Su Wei did it for love

I was speechless; I believe Chen Mobei must not have told Lanshan that the relatives he mentioned once included Gu Meng, who is now driving a red MINI

She suddenly laughed joyfully and said, "Su Wei, I have a burden that I have carried on my back for over twenty years. It is heavy and oppressive, and I am very tired

He said, are you foolish? I have undermined my own brother, and this fight is undoubtedly going to happen. A larger space is more convenient for taking action. Are we supposed to choose a coffee shop or a bar? After the fight, are you going to cover the losses?

But I think, burdened with such deep sins, their happiness cannot be far-reaching.

I understand

I looked at her in confusion, not understanding what she wanted to say

The faces of the four of us are all gloomy, and I wonder why this is necessary. I do not want anyone to be hurt. In fact, Jia Nian and I just want to be together; we simply want love.

I asked, what is in that bundle

I shouted a phrase at Landing Meaning, and he stopped.

For the first time, I dressed up a bit to visit her at her school, standing under the camphor tree waiting for her. When she approached, she raised her eyebrows slightly, nodded, and said, "I really misjudged you; you are indeed a great beauty."

I fell silent at once, knowing that he was right. Lu Yihan usually appears to be quite gentle and refined, and no one has ever seen him lose his temper. However, such individuals are often the most frightening, as no one knows what they are like when they become angry

I, as a person of stature, do not hold grudges against those of lesser character and have graciously forgiven her

However, she then objectively commented that her figure is indeed very good

The four of us emerged from the clinic, with Zhou Jianian's face covered in medication and a plaster applied, while Lu Yihan had her hand bandaged.

I looked at the radiant Lánshān before me, smiling like a blooming flower, and suddenly felt a strong urge to shed tears for her. I nodded vigorously and, rather clichéd, said to her, "Lánshān, may you be happy"

Mo Bei looked at me for a long time. He told me that his father passed away when he was still quite young. He said that the reason he works so hard in life is that he hopes to ensure a happy life for his relatives and children in the future

She suddenly became somewhat melancholic. One day, I told Mo Bei that my mother once said that in life, one must rely on luck. Throughout her life, she had never encountered a man who treated her well and could protect her. But it was alright, because many women have not. Mo Bei asked me, what about your father? I replied that I did not know either, as I had never seen him and had never inquired about him.

Regarding this answer, will Ge Meng, the "college student who has been kept" and already well-known to the public, be satisfied

If I could cry at this moment, perhaps the atmosphere would not be so awkward

She said, my feelings

Then we heard ourselves and each other simultaneously shout, "Shut up!"

Now I am no longer foolish; he is right, it is indeed necessary to clarify things with Qing Tian

One day, my cousin was doing math problems, and she did not yet know what pi was. She asked me what π is. I told her that there are many, many numbers after π, which can get infinitely close to that value, but can never actually reach it

It was a late night, and he remained silent on the other end of the phone for a long, long time. The moment I saw his name light up on my phone, I began to cry. I knew I was not an innocent person; I had indeed plunged a knife into his heart with my own hands.

After we had walked a long distance, we could still see the small figure of the old man standing at the gate of the yard. With tears in my eyes, I waved vigorously at that figure. Zhou Jianian said, "Don't exert yourself, she can't see clearly."

I appeared before Lin Lanshan in a truly disheveled state. This girl has a sharp tongue; as soon as Chen Mobei made a brief introduction, she remarked, "You are not as beautiful as I expected."

His voice was slightly choked, Su Wei, I think it is impossible for me to reach a point where I can forgive you, but you were once the people I valued the most. I have no other way out, I can only leave this place, to walk a little further away, hoping that time and space can dilute this anger and hatred

I turned my face towards her and forced a helpless smile, not knowing how to tell her, "Perhaps for you, she is also a very important person"

You and Gu Meng ... ...

I covered my mouth, crying in a very ungraceful manner

Yet I still waved vigorously. He no longer wasted words, directly grabbing my hand that was filled with enthusiasm and stuffing it into his pocket. Our fingers were interlocked, and the position of our hands remained unchanged until we got off the train and met Lu Yihan and Qing Tian.

My heart is filled with sorrow, pain, shame, and self-blame ... However, I do not regret it, I have no regrets

But where can it be clearly explained? Before I even opened my mouth, Lu Yihan swung a punch at Zhou Jianian. Just as I was about to rush over to pull them apart, Zhou Jianian pointed at me and shouted, "Su Wei, don't you dare move!"

Is there any way? Sometimes, love means betraying the whole world

I was completely startled by his shout, and by the time I reacted, Zhou Jianian was already covered in blood from his nose

That afternoon, we sat on the second floor of the cake shop, sipping iced black tea while enjoying mousse cake. Separated by glass, we were oblivious to the scorching air outside, and I found myself somewhat lost in thought

Jia Nian, to me, you are π; perhaps I have once approached you infinitely, yet I can never reach you.

He waved at me, Su Wei, although you must understand, I still want to say it to you in person: I am truly, truly, very serious about wanting to be with you well. I am really doing my utmost to love you. I do not want to say goodbye to you anymore, I really do not want to see you again.

As Lu Yihan was leaving, Zhou Jianian called out his name towards his back. He stopped and turned to look in our direction, but he was backlit, and we could not see his expression.

Everyone says that woman is very brave, but I wonder if they ended up happy later

When he asked this question, I was twisting my two hands together so tightly that I was almost about to break them. I wished so much that Lu Yihan would say, "Isn't it just a woman? You can have her" or even just "I don't know"; either of those would have made me feel a little better

I truly can no longer recognize her, I wonder how much time has passed, which devil has corrupted that pure soul, who is this person before me that has the exact same face as Gu Meng

When Zhou Jianian and I left the countryside, Grandma Zhou cried for a long time, saying that she was getting older and that each visit was fewer than the last. I sat beside her, crying along, and was shot several fierce glances by Zhou Jianian.

How many unnamed emotions, actions, and intimacies exist in this world, how many embraces and kisses lack formal recognition, yet I know that we will not be like that

However, I cannot cry; perhaps in my subconscious, I truly do not feel that I am beyond redemption

Zhou Jianian gave my head a slap and scolded me in a rough voice, "Isn't it what you said? A formal girlfriend should be introduced formally. If I don't clarify things with her, can you handle it if she comes looking for me for no reason?"